Wahaha

Pardon the language but Hell Yeah!!!! I am going back to KL starting 15th Jan 2010. So long crappy office! New year new life! Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes!!!!!

勇气

每个转捩点都承载着不同重量的未知数，每个需要鼓起勇气下的决定，都需要何等力量的凝聚。没有那么坚强，还在学习不优柔寡断。对于一件事情三思，五思，六思后还会下不了决定，放不下也输不起。期待义无反顾却战战兢兢的忐忑不安。有时误了自己却还是狠不下心舍得那失望的眼神。矛盾百出，要不得。
勇气诚可贵但价更高。为建立勇气的本钱放逐人性的脆弱，狠这个字，还真学不会。

Jingle Bell!!!

Decided to go to KL for Christmas! I won't let you have a lonely Christmas. :)

Can't wait!

Resignation?

I have been considering about resignation.

I am so done with empty promises. When all the hopes i have through out this whole year came crashing down, it brings such an impact on me. When all these endurance and attempts resulted in nothing but plain disappointment, i am really done with it. No matter how many times i tried to reaasure myself that i have already done my best, i couldn't escape feeling so tired and frustrated. It is such an important matter for me and i have been waiting for it for a whole year. And now, it comes to nothingness. It is really really dissapointing.

I don't even know whats the best now. Life is too short to be wasted. I need courage.

Random

Final is over and i am suddenly too free.


What i did before final exam in Mont Kiara.

Today went to do some shopping (after all this time..fuih..). End up with all these girly things. Let's see how the result will turn out to be.

Quote

"To be happy, you have to either change the world, or you change your own thinkings. To be realistic, you have to change your thinkings to become happy" - Unknown source

Confession

I wonder when will the time come when i will wake up every morning feeling sprited about going to work? Everything has been so blah lately. I think maybe its been too long. At some point, i feel like crashing down because of the neverending waits.

I stumbled upon an article lately. It says the one luxurious thing about being 25 is you still have the luxury of not having to settle down for anything. 1/4 life is period to make the best option, time for you to jump and look for the best-suits. How wonderful that sounds.

I have a good job i would say. The only bad thing about it is its becoming more and more a hindrance for me to follow my heart and my desired way of life.

Its hard to choose between being practical and being daring enough to chase for what you want. I am feeling it more and more these days. As the years progress by, life is not only about yourself. There are tonnes of people around to look after. The commitments. In a way, making a decision in life is no longer a matter of your-own-self. It has to take into account these people. The time when i can choose to do what ever i want is long gone at this point.

Its contradictary. My age is not yet the age of settling down. But my life is pushing me to be more settled down.

Oh my god stop all this emo-ing..=_=

yeay

yeay its over. silent celebration.

Early 'Gift'

Being hospitalised in the midst of final exam is really a 'gift'. d . a . r . n

T_T

Tomorrow is the first day of final exam and i am really 'lucky' to have high fever at this point!!!!gosh!the fever just wouldn't go away..I need to do my ultimate revision but the medicines and the heat are making me very tired and dizzy..argh!!!!beh song kah bek si!!!there goes my target of scoring in first sem..damn!!!

Neverending

It has become a routine, a cycle which offer no way out, it keeps going round and round and it keeps happening. Some matters in life are fated to be there the moment you are born into this world. Through out these years, there are always some unexpected break downs which are typical, but unavoidable. It makes me feel sick. And tired. Life can be unfair at times. There are some responsibilties which you have to undertake no matter how suffocating it makes you feel. The burden is always there, you know it is there even if you try to deny. I hope there will come a day where life can be as wished, and the burden can be lifted. The cruel realisation is, there is no santa claus in this world. Wish don't come true easily.

Round and Round

Back in kb after 9 days in kl. Its megasale everywhere!!!...but what i did for the whole 9 days was having myself locked up for some serious study time...oh i feel so guilty to not having the urge to go shopping..>_< They are selling SKII starter set at RM199, which is very very tempting..and the lovely L'Occitane sets..not to mention all the shoes and clothes and bags..=_= Christmas is the time when all the oh-so-cute things a girl need or no need are being as seductive as it can be..=_= Anyway, watched 2010 which was pretty entertaining. Cooked dinner for a week. Went to 1U for some eating marathon, had rotiboy (oh so good) and some spanish doughnats (can't remember the name). All and all it was such a peaceful period, and it almost makes me enjoy all the book-crackings..I think i am too desperate.+_+

Don't Ever Try

Don't get me started. I mean it. I can be unimaginably stubborn. When you step on my tail, i won't listen at all. I am very particular on some matters and if you already knew, don't ever try to cross the line. You won't want to try. This i promise you.

最浪漫的事

有时候，女孩们总爱埋怨，怎么我家那个大块儿头，一点都不浪漫?
他不送鲜花，不陪我看日出，不带我去吃烛光晚餐，就是扎扎实实的木头人一个。

可是噢，退一步想想，也许那也是另一种浪漫?
他不送鲜花，但他努力的想要给你一辈最灿烂的笑靥。这很浪漫吧。
他不陪你看日出，但每个有他在身边陪你一起错过的日出，比那一霎而逝的日出更浪漫吧?
也或许，他不带你去吃烛光晚餐，可是他很用心的把你每个试验失败的晚餐没有怨言的吃了。也浪漫吧?

浪漫不是用价值去计算的。他没送你昂贵的金银珠宝，名牌精品。可是他给你的，是一辈子的爱护与呵护，是衡量不了的财富。
相较之下，你宁愿选择的，是有限的物质的浪漫，还是无限的被爱的浪漫?

如果是我，我宁愿选择后者。

浪漫，不须刻意，不许假意。

最浪漫的事，就是和你一起慢慢变老，等到我们老得哪儿也去不了，你还依然，把我当成，手心里的宝。

Cuteness Overloads

O.H.G.O.O.D.N.E.S.S.M.E

Hold hands na..hold hands na..

Awwww. :))))) Heart melts..



This is the cutest thing ever!

I Need a Break

Non-stop book cracking is killing me..

I need a break!!!



I want a Christmas Getaway!

!!!!!

Wedding Bells

It's no easy job- planning for a wedding. Jia you bah~~ :D

Thou Spirit Shall Not Falter

Oh Dear

There are too many things on my to-do list..i think i am drowning..and i can't swim..ma yar!!!!!

Isolation Period

Final exams are coming. I need to isolate and clam up myself..

JIA YOU AR!!!!!!

^-^

After some gloomy days, finally something is up to lift my mood..(despite it being constantly dampened by the weight of the coming exams..T_T)..i am off to KL again! yeay! It's time for some fun and i will think about those problems only and only after this..No way i will allow it to spoil my holiday mood.

Long live holiday!

Cheers!

What's With This Fog?

At some point in our life, we experience unavoidable bottlenecks.
Some matters may be developing in a way stranded from the original plan,
or a strong belief may be shattered by some cruel realisation.

When the vision is fogged, please shed a little sunshine.

Kb-style bobeh-ing

Si mba, an neh kang ko si zho ha mi sai?!li mai si kong beng wa ka li kong..huh..sien nuh..

I will conquer you. If not on 2nd time, i will on the 3rd time! You wait!

!!!!!!!

It's a Cruel World

I have been missing those innocent days back in school time where betrayal, lies and selfishness are never a big problem. Friends we make during the good old days are always the best we can have. This is especially evident in these days, where i find it harder and harder to trust someone new in my life. People are all trying to cover for themselves. It's true that as you grow old, the relationships in your life grow complicated..

Beware of fox..no..supposedly is foxes.

October Summary

I attended an international course in KL for 3 weeks from 5/10 to 23/10. It was such a wonderful experience to be able to meet up with a bunch of amazing people from all over the world - Saudi Arabia, Nigeria, Peru, Sudan, Seychelles, Uganda, Syria, Mauritius, Jordan, Cambodia, Thailand, Laos, Myanmar and Indonesia. The course has been splendid and the people are all so nice and warm. It was so much fun! :)

The highlight of October would be my birthday (of cause). A wonderful and blessed day made complete by so many important people of my life.

Thanks to my family for the yearly birthday song sang over the phone at the very first second of my birthday.
Thanks to Loon, Chaw and his girlfriend for the surprise birthday celebration.
Thanks to Hwang for the birthday present all the way from Japan.
Thanks to Shien for her thoughtful and surprise gift.
Thanks to everyone for the warm birthday wishes.
And, most importantly, thanks for the biggest surprise ever - the biggest gift. :)


anyway, i am not yet 30 as indicated by the numbers of candles on the cupcakes. =_=

I am a lucky girl. Thanks to all the wonderful people in my life. I am really touched. :)

The Biggest Gift

I have always said this. Meeting with someone you would want to spend your whole life with is the biggest gift.

It's nothing extravaganza. Just mutual trust. And of cause, the touching moments.

May God bless. It's still a long way to go. But everything will be just as finest as it can be. I am sure.

:)

My 1st Hakka Dish - Niang Kai Cun

Jack's aunt taught me how to make this Hakka dish when i was in KL last week. It's one of the Hakka boy's favourite dish. Pork + Eggs are forever his favourite combination. :P



Anyway, today i made this 'niang kai cun' for papa and mummy to try. I knew they will love it because it's really good (the dish itself not my cooking). And, they sure did and i am so touched. :)))

Here it is, it might not looks too appealing (i am still learning how to wrap the pork in the egg nicely..) but it's quite tasty (i have to say so).:P

Allowing yourself to stay ignorant is a crime

I do not wish to say this. But i have to spill it out somewhere i can't keep it in my chest any longer. Why is it some people just refused to improve themselves?!!!??!?!No offense but this is just plain stupidity. Totally!

Milky Vanilla Mini Cake

My first attempt in baking. Still learning and trying. Cooking is fun. Baking too.:)

When I Need You

Only 4 words. But that's about all.
Be there.

I Quit

It's simple mathematics. To get an equality you have to add or minus. In life, when you gain something, you lose another thing. It's like an opportunity cost. An option you chose out of many options will incure a cost to you for choosing one alternative instead of the other. It might seems confusing. But it's simple. Take an example, place where you choose to live. Choose to be in hometown, you gain comfort at home but you might lose the freedom and experience at foreign places. Most of the time, people confuse themselves. Like me. I have this tendency of thinking too much that sometimes i will end up being hesitance. It is not good because it is a waste of time. So how? Most of the time, i have no idea. Things will come and go, a decision made, good or bad, will have its impacts erased by time. For this period, i think there should be enough thinking. So i quit. God bless.

Still the Big W

Waiting.

Still waiting.

I am really anxious.

This is really disturbing.

\(^_^)/

Yes! Today i successfully made a good sweet sour chicken. Love it!

:))))))))))))

Cooking : Self-learning

I am determined to improve my cooking skills starting from yesterday.

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Today, i made my first attempt in trying to boil the chicken herbal soup. The ingredients include kampung chicken, dang-shen, qi-zi, yu-zu, red dates, dried longan, bei-qi, huai-shan and a little bit of salts.

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The end result: Taadaaa!!

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The soup is sweet (no added sugar) and fresh. The sweetness is from the red dates and dried longan i think. Definitely not bitter at all. I like the all-so-natural flavours. :))))

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Yeay, WCJ will see one day that my cooking skills is better and no more "if it's not because of love it won't be eat-able"... T_T

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Hahaha!! One day i will become a good cook!

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Wait for that day!

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:)

Call Me A Saint

I haven't been doing any decent shopping for months already. What a record for myself. Somehow i just lost my shopping urge. I wonder if part of the reason is 'not' because of the Mr. Know Who. Ehem ehem.

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Anyway, i still dream of swipping that shiny little gold card for all these:

- i need a philips salon hair curler 38mm because i need to play with my hair.

- i need a SKII miracle water because i need porcelain like skin like Lee Sing-Jye.

- i need lots of dresses because i need to act cute in those cuties little dresses.

- i need to get rid of my dark eye-bags because i need to get rid of them. get away from my face!

- i need a stainless steel no-scratch watch because i need to have a new watch.

- i need ....

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As if i need.

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Just crapping.

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I should be called Miss Saint bacause i stop shopping.

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Bravo bravo bravo bravo bravo...

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*sweat*

This Is Pissing Me Off.Big.Time!

I hate people who didn't carry out their responsibilities. It's plain stupidity and lame excuse. Another type of people is those who do things not according to the supposed way, taking other's for granted and think they own the authority to mess with other's life. Darn donkeys.

20090612 - Bali: Pura Tirta Empul + Ubud

Serenity at the temple.

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The sacred water.

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^^

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Bali paddy hill.
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On the way to Ubud.

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The craftshop by the road to Ubud.

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Ubud. Dinner at Bebek Bengil.

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Nice ambience.

Salmon fish with salads.

Pork ribs? I have no idea.

The famous dirty duck. Crispy. A bit dry. Overall worth a try.

The room at Nick's Pension.

20090612 - Bali: Kintamani

I swear there was a shorts under my top.now i realized the shorts was too short. '_'lll

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Kintamani
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The restaurant where we had our lunch.
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candid shot (of us in the other table).

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The lunch. Bali style.

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View from our table.

:)

Yesterday, 31st August 2009 was a blessed day. I must have stumbled on a lucky star. :)

We have come a long way in this journey, supporting each other through the laughter and the tears. The road is still long, and maybe winding, but we have faith.

I will remember every words we shared on that special day.

We will wait and see what will happen when the official moment comes.

Just be patient and anticipate for the best.

Everything will be fine.

God bless us.

:)

Conversation

"What if i said no?"

"I will wait until you say yes."

鸡腿

今天无意中看到了一篇引人深思的文章。

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有对老夫妇，两人携手走了半世，却在该享清福的时候，两人一前一后走进了律师楼。

为的是要办离婚。

离婚后，两人约在第一次约会的餐厅，一起共进最后一次的两人晚餐。

老先生一如既往，夹了个鸡腿，跟老太太说:"鸡腿给你，吃吧。"

岂料老太太竟说:"其实，我很爱你，可是你这个人真的太自我了，每一次都是你说了就算。也没问过我的意见。其实你知不知道，我最讨厌吃鸡腿了。"

老先生听了，说:"其实，我就是最爱你了。所以我一直都想给你最好的东西。你知道吗。我最爱吃的，就是鸡腿。"

两人沉默不语，心中个自感慨，原来多年的婚姻，竟输给了沟通两个字。

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有时候，我们是不是也一样呢?在该沟通的时候，选择不坦白，心中自以为是的认为"他/她 应该要谅解我。"

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可是我们却忘了，在一起的两个人，本来都是个体的一个人。对方又不是你心中的蛔虫，怎么有可能无时无刻都了你在想什么呢?

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两个人能在一起，是缘分，也是福分。但要感恩，因为那一份幸运的眷恋，不是理所当然的。

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爱一个人的时候，我们会有无穷的耐性，会不计较的容忍，会不舍得拒绝，只因我们会心疼他/她失望的眼神。

就如老太太一样，就算不喜欢，也会因为对方的殷勤而照单全受。就如同爱人送你一个不是很爱的礼物，你还是会开心的收下，因为你感动的，是那一份心意。

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同样的，爱一个人的时候，我们会一心想要给对方最好的，会自我牺牲，会不舍得争取，只因我们会心疼他/她排在第二的委屈。

就如同老先生一般，就算很喜欢，也会因为想要对方享有最好的而作取舍。就好像你很爱的食物，在点餐是你会因为对方的喜好而避开不点，因为你想成就的，是对方的喜悦。

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但是，在这当时，有没有停一停，听一听对方所要的，是不是你所以为的最好?

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我们常常一厢情愿的以为，自己为对方作了多大的付出。

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冲突的时候，以为不骂不吵，就是很大的忍让。心中OS我也不是好惹的，换作是别人，我早给他骂个狗血淋头了！

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再想一想，真的是这样吗?

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不言不语，真的好吗?你不说，对方怎么知道?

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相爱的两个人，何必沦得以沉默代替沟通呢?

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有意句话说得好:"愿意留下来跟你争吵的人，才是真正爱你的人。"

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因为他/她在乎你想说的一切，因为他/她不舍得留你一个人难受。

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这世上，没有一百分的另一半，只有一百分的两个人。

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为了你们的一百分，请沟通，请倾听。

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不要相爱到最后，输给了沉默。

Don't Take For Granted

An unfortunate incident happened in the family yesterday. An aunt went to India and met an accident. We lost her there.

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I remember my aunt as a loving and caring lady. We seldom met as she lived in KL. But each time meeting her was a wonderful experience. She was a passionate person. So lively and chatty. But now she is gone.

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This is how unpredictable life can be. You never know that the goodbye you said this time would mean goodbye forever. It never crossed you mind that the chat you had this time would be the last word you heard from someone in your life. Last moment you were sharing a hearty laugh together and the next moment, you were left with coldness and tears in your heart.

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People like us, we always think people and things around us are meant to be with us. In times, we failed to appreciate. Instead, we tend to take for granted. We like to say "never mind, i will do it tomorrow."; we say "what's the rush? we will see how it goes tomorrow."; or we would say "aiya..next time la.." etc. etc. etc.

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But have it ever occurred to you that there might not be next time? That tomorrow you were saying might never come? Every precious in you life might not be there forever. You just never know.

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Please. Don't take for granted. If there is anything you want to do, don't wait. If you really cared for anything or anyone, don't wait anymore. Don't wait until something unfortunate happened then only regret your hesitation or procrastination. Treasure everyone. And appreciate every little thing in life.

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May all of us are showered with goodness and blessings at all times.

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R.I.P. aunt. We will miss you.

认了吧

一个人的时候，看看书，上上网。
想要有人陪的时候，也一样，看书，上网。
没差呀。

二十五岁了，还学什么小女孩撒娇?
若觉得烦，累，怒，悲，
那。。
一样，
看看书，上上网吧。
你几岁了?还奢望有人为你挡风遮雨吗?

醒吧！
自己的事，麻烦你自己解决。
不要撒娇，不许软弱，也轮不到你颓废。
想发牢骚的时候，请你闭上你的嘴巴。谁有闲情安慰你啊?
醒啦！
不行吗?还是心烦气躁吗?
那，去睡吧！
睡醒了，脑袋也清醒了。
就忘了那些恼人的事吧。

只是，这样的压抑法，行吗?通吗?
你会开始渐渐地沉默，慢慢地忘了怎么说话。
开始像个贝壳般，撬不开。
你的思绪，会开始凝结。
你的情绪，会开始封锁。
你的每一天，会越来越单调。

可是，
人生就是如此这般。

怒了，收声。
累了，休息。
悲了，独处。
为自己找个出口，但麻烦不要骚扰他人。
没有事情不会过去，身边的人也不一定会长留。
你的人生，请你自己走。

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若很幸运，有人携手，麻烦请你好好珍惜。
感谢你那被眷顾的人生。
若落单了，也麻烦你好好珍惜。
感谢这世上还有惊喜。

人，生来是个体的。
处在世上，也是个体的。
心心相印，是福气。
独立生活，是勇气。
好好照顾自己吧。
一个人的生活，会少了牵挂，多了自己。

爱情是滋润，亲情是温暖。
雨一定会下，太阳也一定会升起来。
同样的道理， 没有说一定不行。

在一个人的时候，学会独处，沉淀。
在两个人的时候，好好相处，分享。

也许有时会看不清楚，但一定要相信，一切会很好。

人生难免会存有期待，但还是一样，旅途中麻烦自己学会坚强，不要累了自己，也累了人家。

Bali Day 1 : 20090613 - Besakih Mother Temple

The over-the-top sunnies.

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Circling the temple.

Step up.

\(#^.^#)/

Traditional Bali architecture.

Blue sky. Green view. White cloud. Need to say more?

Woah!

Climb but please stop at the gate.

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Bali Day 2: 20090613 - Fat Yogi Cottages

0700 HR, Good morning to Morning 1. \(^.^)/


Breakfast by the pool.

We didn't get to swim though. Too packed for that.

Leaving. Starting of journey around Bali.

Bali Day 1 - 20090612

On the plane to Bali.

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Supper. Yes it's McD. We have to.

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Our first bill in rupiah.

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Triple beef burger.

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The small alley of Bali.

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Fat Yogi Cottage, Kuta, Bali.

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My bed. Good night to Night 1 in Bali.