Wahaha

Pardon the language but Hell Yeah!!!! I am going back to KL starting 15th Jan 2010. So long crappy office! New year new life! Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes!!!!!

勇气

每个转捩点都承载着不同重量的未知数，每个需要鼓起勇气下的决定，都需要何等力量的凝聚。没有那么坚强，还在学习不优柔寡断。对于一件事情三思，五思，六思后还会下不了决定，放不下也输不起。期待义无反顾却战战兢兢的忐忑不安。有时误了自己却还是狠不下心舍得那失望的眼神。矛盾百出，要不得。
勇气诚可贵但价更高。为建立勇气的本钱放逐人性的脆弱，狠这个字，还真学不会。

Jingle Bell!!!

Decided to go to KL for Christmas! I won't let you have a lonely Christmas. :)

Can't wait!

Resignation?

I have been considering about resignation.

I am so done with empty promises. When all the hopes i have through out this whole year came crashing down, it brings such an impact on me. When all these endurance and attempts resulted in nothing but plain disappointment, i am really done with it. No matter how many times i tried to reaasure myself that i have already done my best, i couldn't escape feeling so tired and frustrated. It is such an important matter for me and i have been waiting for it for a whole year. And now, it comes to nothingness. It is really really dissapointing.

I don't even know whats the best now. Life is too short to be wasted. I need courage.

Random

Final is over and i am suddenly too free.


What i did before final exam in Mont Kiara.

Today went to do some shopping (after all this time..fuih..). End up with all these girly things. Let's see how the result will turn out to be.

Quote

"To be happy, you have to either change the world, or you change your own thinkings. To be realistic, you have to change your thinkings to become happy" - Unknown source

Confession

I wonder when will the time come when i will wake up every morning feeling sprited about going to work? Everything has been so blah lately. I think maybe its been too long. At some point, i feel like crashing down because of the neverending waits.

I stumbled upon an article lately. It says the one luxurious thing about being 25 is you still have the luxury of not having to settle down for anything. 1/4 life is period to make the best option, time for you to jump and look for the best-suits. How wonderful that sounds.

I have a good job i would say. The only bad thing about it is its becoming more and more a hindrance for me to follow my heart and my desired way of life.

Its hard to choose between being practical and being daring enough to chase for what you want. I am feeling it more and more these days. As the years progress by, life is not only about yourself. There are tonnes of people around to look after. The commitments. In a way, making a decision in life is no longer a matter of your-own-self. It has to take into account these people. The time when i can choose to do what ever i want is long gone at this point.

Its contradictary. My age is not yet the age of settling down. But my life is pushing me to be more settled down.

Oh my god stop all this emo-ing..=_=

yeay

yeay its over. silent celebration.

Early 'Gift'

Being hospitalised in the midst of final exam is really a 'gift'. d . a . r . n

T_T

Tomorrow is the first day of final exam and i am really 'lucky' to have high fever at this point!!!!gosh!the fever just wouldn't go away..I need to do my ultimate revision but the medicines and the heat are making me very tired and dizzy..argh!!!!beh song kah bek si!!!there goes my target of scoring in first sem..damn!!!

Neverending

It has become a routine, a cycle which offer no way out, it keeps going round and round and it keeps happening. Some matters in life are fated to be there the moment you are born into this world. Through out these years, there are always some unexpected break downs which are typical, but unavoidable. It makes me feel sick. And tired. Life can be unfair at times. There are some responsibilties which you have to undertake no matter how suffocating it makes you feel. The burden is always there, you know it is there even if you try to deny. I hope there will come a day where life can be as wished, and the burden can be lifted. The cruel realisation is, there is no santa claus in this world. Wish don't come true easily.

Round and Round

Back in kb after 9 days in kl. Its megasale everywhere!!!...but what i did for the whole 9 days was having myself locked up for some serious study time...oh i feel so guilty to not having the urge to go shopping..>_< They are selling SKII starter set at RM199, which is very very tempting..and the lovely L'Occitane sets..not to mention all the shoes and clothes and bags..=_= Christmas is the time when all the oh-so-cute things a girl need or no need are being as seductive as it can be..=_= Anyway, watched 2010 which was pretty entertaining. Cooked dinner for a week. Went to 1U for some eating marathon, had rotiboy (oh so good) and some spanish doughnats (can't remember the name). All and all it was such a peaceful period, and it almost makes me enjoy all the book-crackings..I think i am too desperate.+_+