The Date

The big dates are tentatively chosen on 01012011 and 21012011. Everything is kicking start now. I still have like a year to plan but i am already getting nervous. Anyway, 1st on the list will be to get good skin! Give it to me! Acha~~~~~

Still looking for the most suitable bridal studio.


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Randomly:
I am getting bored of my ever-the-same hairstyle.
And i miss oysterSSSS.

勇气

每个转捩点都承载着不同重量的未知数，每个需要鼓起勇气下的决定，都需要何等力量的凝聚。没有那么坚强，还在学习不优柔寡断。对于一件事情三思，五思，六思后还会下不了决定，放不下也输不起。期待义无反顾却战战兢兢的忐忑不安。有时误了自己却还是狠不下心舍得那失望的眼神。矛盾百出，要不得。
勇气诚可贵但价更高。为建立勇气的本钱放逐人性的脆弱，狠这个字，还真学不会。

Resignation?

I have been considering about resignation.

I am so done with empty promises. When all the hopes i have through out this whole year came crashing down, it brings such an impact on me. When all these endurance and attempts resulted in nothing but plain disappointment, i am really done with it. No matter how many times i tried to reaasure myself that i have already done my best, i couldn't escape feeling so tired and frustrated. It is such an important matter for me and i have been waiting for it for a whole year. And now, it comes to nothingness. It is really really dissapointing.

I don't even know whats the best now. Life is too short to be wasted. I need courage.

Confession

I wonder when will the time come when i will wake up every morning feeling sprited about going to work? Everything has been so blah lately. I think maybe its been too long. At some point, i feel like crashing down because of the neverending waits.

I stumbled upon an article lately. It says the one luxurious thing about being 25 is you still have the luxury of not having to settle down for anything. 1/4 life is period to make the best option, time for you to jump and look for the best-suits. How wonderful that sounds.

I have a good job i would say. The only bad thing about it is its becoming more and more a hindrance for me to follow my heart and my desired way of life.

Its hard to choose between being practical and being daring enough to chase for what you want. I am feeling it more and more these days. As the years progress by, life is not only about yourself. There are tonnes of people around to look after. The commitments. In a way, making a decision in life is no longer a matter of your-own-self. It has to take into account these people. The time when i can choose to do what ever i want is long gone at this point.

Its contradictary. My age is not yet the age of settling down. But my life is pushing me to be more settled down.

Oh my god stop all this emo-ing..=_=

Neverending

It has become a routine, a cycle which offer no way out, it keeps going round and round and it keeps happening. Some matters in life are fated to be there the moment you are born into this world. Through out these years, there are always some unexpected break downs which are typical, but unavoidable. It makes me feel sick. And tired. Life can be unfair at times. There are some responsibilties which you have to undertake no matter how suffocating it makes you feel. The burden is always there, you know it is there even if you try to deny. I hope there will come a day where life can be as wished, and the burden can be lifted. The cruel realisation is, there is no santa claus in this world. Wish don't come true easily.

Round and Round

Back in kb after 9 days in kl. Its megasale everywhere!!!...but what i did for the whole 9 days was having myself locked up for some serious study time...oh i feel so guilty to not having the urge to go shopping..>_< They are selling SKII starter set at RM199, which is very very tempting..and the lovely L'Occitane sets..not to mention all the shoes and clothes and bags..=_= Christmas is the time when all the oh-so-cute things a girl need or no need are being as seductive as it can be..=_= Anyway, watched 2010 which was pretty entertaining. Cooked dinner for a week. Went to 1U for some eating marathon, had rotiboy (oh so good) and some spanish doughnats (can't remember the name). All and all it was such a peaceful period, and it almost makes me enjoy all the book-crackings..I think i am too desperate.+_+

I Need a Break

Non-stop book cracking is killing me..

I need a break!!!



I want a Christmas Getaway!

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After some gloomy days, finally something is up to lift my mood..(despite it being constantly dampened by the weight of the coming exams..T_T)..i am off to KL again! yeay! It's time for some fun and i will think about those problems only and only after this..No way i will allow it to spoil my holiday mood.

Long live holiday!

Cheers!

What's With This Fog?

At some point in our life, we experience unavoidable bottlenecks.
Some matters may be developing in a way stranded from the original plan,
or a strong belief may be shattered by some cruel realisation.

When the vision is fogged, please shed a little sunshine.

It's a Cruel World

I have been missing those innocent days back in school time where betrayal, lies and selfishness are never a big problem. Friends we make during the good old days are always the best we can have. This is especially evident in these days, where i find it harder and harder to trust someone new in my life. People are all trying to cover for themselves. It's true that as you grow old, the relationships in your life grow complicated..

Beware of fox..no..supposedly is foxes.

Allowing yourself to stay ignorant is a crime

I do not wish to say this. But i have to spill it out somewhere i can't keep it in my chest any longer. Why is it some people just refused to improve themselves?!!!??!?!No offense but this is just plain stupidity. Totally!

I Quit

It's simple mathematics. To get an equality you have to add or minus. In life, when you gain something, you lose another thing. It's like an opportunity cost. An option you chose out of many options will incure a cost to you for choosing one alternative instead of the other. It might seems confusing. But it's simple. Take an example, place where you choose to live. Choose to be in hometown, you gain comfort at home but you might lose the freedom and experience at foreign places. Most of the time, people confuse themselves. Like me. I have this tendency of thinking too much that sometimes i will end up being hesitance. It is not good because it is a waste of time. So how? Most of the time, i have no idea. Things will come and go, a decision made, good or bad, will have its impacts erased by time. For this period, i think there should be enough thinking. So i quit. God bless.

Still the Big W

Waiting.

Still waiting.

I am really anxious.

This is really disturbing.

Call Me A Saint

I haven't been doing any decent shopping for months already. What a record for myself. Somehow i just lost my shopping urge. I wonder if part of the reason is 'not' because of the Mr. Know Who. Ehem ehem.

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Anyway, i still dream of swipping that shiny little gold card for all these:

- i need a philips salon hair curler 38mm because i need to play with my hair.

- i need a SKII miracle water because i need porcelain like skin like Lee Sing-Jye.

- i need lots of dresses because i need to act cute in those cuties little dresses.

- i need to get rid of my dark eye-bags because i need to get rid of them. get away from my face!

- i need a stainless steel no-scratch watch because i need to have a new watch.

- i need ....

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As if i need.

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Just crapping.

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I should be called Miss Saint bacause i stop shopping.

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Bravo bravo bravo bravo bravo...

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*sweat*

鸡腿

今天无意中看到了一篇引人深思的文章。

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有对老夫妇，两人携手走了半世，却在该享清福的时候，两人一前一后走进了律师楼。

为的是要办离婚。

离婚后，两人约在第一次约会的餐厅，一起共进最后一次的两人晚餐。

老先生一如既往，夹了个鸡腿，跟老太太说:"鸡腿给你，吃吧。"

岂料老太太竟说:"其实，我很爱你，可是你这个人真的太自我了，每一次都是你说了就算。也没问过我的意见。其实你知不知道，我最讨厌吃鸡腿了。"

老先生听了，说:"其实，我就是最爱你了。所以我一直都想给你最好的东西。你知道吗。我最爱吃的，就是鸡腿。"

两人沉默不语，心中个自感慨，原来多年的婚姻，竟输给了沟通两个字。

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有时候，我们是不是也一样呢?在该沟通的时候，选择不坦白，心中自以为是的认为"他/她 应该要谅解我。"

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可是我们却忘了，在一起的两个人，本来都是个体的一个人。对方又不是你心中的蛔虫，怎么有可能无时无刻都了你在想什么呢?

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两个人能在一起，是缘分，也是福分。但要感恩，因为那一份幸运的眷恋，不是理所当然的。

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爱一个人的时候，我们会有无穷的耐性，会不计较的容忍，会不舍得拒绝，只因我们会心疼他/她失望的眼神。

就如老太太一样，就算不喜欢，也会因为对方的殷勤而照单全受。就如同爱人送你一个不是很爱的礼物，你还是会开心的收下，因为你感动的，是那一份心意。

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同样的，爱一个人的时候，我们会一心想要给对方最好的，会自我牺牲，会不舍得争取，只因我们会心疼他/她排在第二的委屈。

就如同老先生一般，就算很喜欢，也会因为想要对方享有最好的而作取舍。就好像你很爱的食物，在点餐是你会因为对方的喜好而避开不点，因为你想成就的，是对方的喜悦。

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但是，在这当时，有没有停一停，听一听对方所要的，是不是你所以为的最好?

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我们常常一厢情愿的以为，自己为对方作了多大的付出。

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冲突的时候，以为不骂不吵，就是很大的忍让。心中OS我也不是好惹的，换作是别人，我早给他骂个狗血淋头了！

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再想一想，真的是这样吗?

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不言不语，真的好吗?你不说，对方怎么知道?

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相爱的两个人，何必沦得以沉默代替沟通呢?

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有意句话说得好:"愿意留下来跟你争吵的人，才是真正爱你的人。"

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因为他/她在乎你想说的一切，因为他/她不舍得留你一个人难受。

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这世上，没有一百分的另一半，只有一百分的两个人。

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为了你们的一百分，请沟通，请倾听。

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不要相爱到最后，输给了沉默。

Don't Take For Granted

An unfortunate incident happened in the family yesterday. An aunt went to India and met an accident. We lost her there.

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I remember my aunt as a loving and caring lady. We seldom met as she lived in KL. But each time meeting her was a wonderful experience. She was a passionate person. So lively and chatty. But now she is gone.

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This is how unpredictable life can be. You never know that the goodbye you said this time would mean goodbye forever. It never crossed you mind that the chat you had this time would be the last word you heard from someone in your life. Last moment you were sharing a hearty laugh together and the next moment, you were left with coldness and tears in your heart.

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People like us, we always think people and things around us are meant to be with us. In times, we failed to appreciate. Instead, we tend to take for granted. We like to say "never mind, i will do it tomorrow."; we say "what's the rush? we will see how it goes tomorrow."; or we would say "aiya..next time la.." etc. etc. etc.

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But have it ever occurred to you that there might not be next time? That tomorrow you were saying might never come? Every precious in you life might not be there forever. You just never know.

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Please. Don't take for granted. If there is anything you want to do, don't wait. If you really cared for anything or anyone, don't wait anymore. Don't wait until something unfortunate happened then only regret your hesitation or procrastination. Treasure everyone. And appreciate every little thing in life.

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May all of us are showered with goodness and blessings at all times.

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R.I.P. aunt. We will miss you.

认了吧

一个人的时候，看看书，上上网。
想要有人陪的时候，也一样，看书，上网。
没差呀。

二十五岁了，还学什么小女孩撒娇?
若觉得烦，累，怒，悲，
那。。
一样，
看看书，上上网吧。
你几岁了?还奢望有人为你挡风遮雨吗?

醒吧！
自己的事，麻烦你自己解决。
不要撒娇，不许软弱，也轮不到你颓废。
想发牢骚的时候，请你闭上你的嘴巴。谁有闲情安慰你啊?
醒啦！
不行吗?还是心烦气躁吗?
那，去睡吧！
睡醒了，脑袋也清醒了。
就忘了那些恼人的事吧。

只是，这样的压抑法，行吗?通吗?
你会开始渐渐地沉默，慢慢地忘了怎么说话。
开始像个贝壳般，撬不开。
你的思绪，会开始凝结。
你的情绪，会开始封锁。
你的每一天，会越来越单调。

可是，
人生就是如此这般。

怒了，收声。
累了，休息。
悲了，独处。
为自己找个出口，但麻烦不要骚扰他人。
没有事情不会过去，身边的人也不一定会长留。
你的人生，请你自己走。

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若很幸运，有人携手，麻烦请你好好珍惜。
感谢你那被眷顾的人生。
若落单了，也麻烦你好好珍惜。
感谢这世上还有惊喜。

人，生来是个体的。
处在世上，也是个体的。
心心相印，是福气。
独立生活，是勇气。
好好照顾自己吧。
一个人的生活，会少了牵挂，多了自己。

爱情是滋润，亲情是温暖。
雨一定会下，太阳也一定会升起来。
同样的道理， 没有说一定不行。

在一个人的时候，学会独处，沉淀。
在两个人的时候，好好相处，分享。

也许有时会看不清楚，但一定要相信，一切会很好。

人生难免会存有期待，但还是一样，旅途中麻烦自己学会坚强，不要累了自己，也累了人家。

T_T

Oh my god!!! !!!

I was about to heave a sigh of relief (finally made some decent progress in the Managing Human Resources assignment)when i opened up the Economics Environment of Business paper and saw the questions... and i have yet to study the questions for Accounting and Finance!

All i want to do now is S>C>R>E>A>M!!!

Why do these assignments have to be so darn difficult and so over -the-top challenging???!!?!?

Argh..argh..argh...argh...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Two weeks to due date and the one i nearly but haven't finish has already took me a darn two weeks!

MY GOD!!!!!

State of Numbness

I came across a few troubling situations this year. Somehow it makes me realize how powerless i am over a few matters that are so important to me.

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In life, there are a lot of unfairness. Maybe there is something that you want so badly, but you know deep in your heart that it won't materialise. It's hard. But it's true.

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At this point of my life, i have a plan, which i wish is on track. I have my wants and needs. But i have to make sacrifices. It may seems unfair. But it's just how it is. I just can't complaint.

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In reality, there are a lot of things in life that affect your decision. Most of the times, the biggest influence comes from the people who are most close to you. I tried my best to go after what i want in my life. And now, i am still trying my best. Although i do feel tired, although sometimes i lost hope, i still try because i believe in efforts.

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I am a very stubborn girl. I don't like the idea of giving up. I don't approve people who stop halfway and show no enthusiasm. Nor do i agree with people who just say a plan but never show effort in realizing it. It is my belief that if you are really passionate about something, no matter what are the obstacles, you will still go for it. Reality is already hard, if you still let loose of what you want, you are making it harder. Don't give yourself excuse like i can't now, or see how it goes, or never mind, this can wait etc.

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Bullshit.

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Life is short. Live it to the fullest.

Cow Skin Tang Lung

I am an observer, and most of the time, i am affected by the matter or person i am observing. I am not really sure if this is natural.

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Facebook these days happened to be flooded with wedding photos. Friend's wedding, or friend of friend's wedding.

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I have a friend who has a crush on a girl. But to bad to say, he was to slow in making up his mind on going after the girl of his dream. In the end, the girl is attached to another guy.

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This really got me thinking.deep.

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You know in life, sometimes you just have make a decision without any second thoughts. Life won't retake. And it's really true when people say "u missed the chance once, u missed it forever."

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Some people hesitate whether to change the job he or she hates so much. Some wonder if it is the right time to continue study. Some doubt if it is the right time to start a relationship.

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People. Sometimes they just worry too much.

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Please. Open up your mind and listen to your heart. Just go with it for God's sake!

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If you think you had enough of your boss, then start looking for a new one!

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If continuing your study had always been in your future plan, then fill in the application form!

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If you know you loved someone, and you know you want to be with him or her, then confess!

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What is so difficult in taking the first step to start realizing your dream?

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I don't understand.

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People just love to wait.

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Oh, i will wait until i........, then i will..........

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Then?

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Wait until you lost your passion? Wait until you lost that precious someone?

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Passion won't burn forever. Most importantly, people won't live forever.

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Life is u.n.p.r.e.d.i.c.t.a.b.l.e.

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When you found that special someone, don't wait.

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Don't say "I will wait until i achieve this level in my career then i will try to win her over."

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Or "I will wait for another year then maybe i will plan for my future."

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If you asked me, i would say i don't get it. This waiting shit.

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If you keep on waiting, what good it would bring?

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Just make that decision. Do what you need to do. Just go on!

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If you succeed, then congratulations! Your wish has come true.

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If you failed, then live with it. It's not like you will die.

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I think i am too emotional already.

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Anyhow, JUST DO IT LA PLEASE...............................

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Still hesitating? Still being overly-rationalistic? then...... go to sleep la.

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Cow-skin tang lung, never lit.

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